God has been good to me. I’ve been through some things I never thought I’d survive but I’m still here – maybe a little battered but triumphant nonetheless. I was fortunate enough to meet two very spiritual sisters in 1995 (my Buffalo, NY years) – oddly enough, they were both named Kathy! Kathy Sr. is one of the realest people I know. She is a true heroine. Kathy Jr. has an amazingly gentle but powerful spirit. I love you Kathys!!

It was she who explained “anointed” to me. She told me that God anoints people: blesses them with certain gifts and sets them aside for a specific purpose. I’ve thought about this quite a bit. I often tell people I have found my gift in creative expression and I thought that only pertained to graphics and design. However, I can’t tell you how many comments and encouragement I’ve received from people regarding my writing. When I started writing about my life and experiences, I didn’t realize the impact it would make on some. And it is now that I write this piece that I fully understand that I’ve scratched the surface of yet another gift. Who knew? When you discover you have a gift, it does set you apart whether you like it or not. I won’t say it sets you above because everyone has gifts but this can be a struggle if you have a desire to be “average.” Ironically, it’s like addiction, admitting you have it is the first step. To my detriment, I have found I have often hidden my gifts… for acceptance. What’s funny is that I know others – like me – who do the same thing. I told someone recently that I was glad to be intelligent and they said if I was dumb, I wouldn’t know. I know people who are so smart, you can almost see them processing information. I’m surprised smoke doesn’t come out of their ears.

I can’t recall where I read it but it was something like, “I will not be less so that others may be more.” I suppose my fear is that I will outshine those I love and it will somehow shadow them. But if I understand anything about the way God operates, that doesn’t make any sense. If we are standing side by side – our light reflects and combines with that of others. Even when one of us doesn’t shine so brightly, we are all in the light. I may be anointed but so is everyone I come in contact with. We all fit together and I believe we were divinely designed to complement each other. No one can be all things. It is truly a blessing to be anointed, to know that you are here to illuminate God. †

“I gotta be meeeeee, I gotta be meeee!”