Recently I’ve become very aware of my mortality. Sometimes when I say goodbye to a friend or family, I think “what if I never see them again?” What if I leave here and get hit by a bus? Hey – it could happen. I’m all too aware that it could happen. I think at one point I was deathly afraid of death. Now I understand that it is a part of life. If you are to live, you are to die. With that understanding comes other truths, like, what if I don’t get to visit the Grand Canyon? Well, maybe not that but there are many things I’d like to do and haven’t done… I wonder how many people lie on their deathbeds and say that they’ve accomplished everything they’ve ever wanted to do.
Maybe we aren’t supposed to do everything. If nothing else, I have come to the realization that the clichéd “live every day as if it were your last” deserves serious consideration. There are many things I hope to experience – true love and commitment, children, contentment, passion and the simple joys of being. Currently my passion lies in my work. It brings me great pleasure. I can hardly wait to see what I’ll create next. I hope that some day soon, this same passion will spill into all areas of my life. I do believe I can do anything I set out to do. Just to let you in on a little secret… I plan to take over the world!! Okay, okay… maybe not the whole world – but at the very least, I will control what I can in my life and surrender the rest.
Life is about choices. Those choices take us down different roads. We tend to think we can backtrack – that we’ll have time to go back and take another road if one doesn’t lead where we’d like it to. Metaphorically speaking, sometimes there isn’t another exit or if there is, it’s 80 miles up. Bottom line for me is, do what you gotta do, take a chance and enjoy the ride!